I'm happy to report today went pretty well, even after all of the months of curiosity and anticipation. We got up a tad late, but got moving right away. I wanted to eat a little something before pumping my body full of meds, so that was the first line of business.
The night before we reviewed the video that came with our meds, going over the how-to's one last time. We actually found it to be a pretty beneficial way to refresh all that we had been told in our review. When it came time, we did just as we were instructed. Found a flat surface, disinfected it, laid out all the supplies and then Jay got down to business. I was really proud of how well he remembered everything.
At this point, I was searching for ways to stall. Yes, I'll admit it. The syringe was primed and ready to go and I was being a baby. "But wait..." "Hold on one more second..." I literally did this for somewhere around eight minutes. It was sad :P
First I said... don't count it. Don't even mention that you're going to do it. I don't want to know. Then after about 6 minutes into stalling, I decide that I DID want him to count to three. Hey, I'm a woman. I can change my mind, right? I even pushed him to the point that he said "you want a baby right?" and I do believe he hummed some sort of familiar high school pep cheer at one point. :-D
Finally - I give the go. Of course I looked away. There is no way I'm ready to see that at this point. Maybe never. The actual "stick" itself wasn't bad at all. It felt different than any other needle I've ever been stuck with. A tiny pinch and then I could slightly feel it slide in. Little creepy, yes, but better than it hurting the entire time. The part I felt the most was when, after he stuck me, he moved the needle around a bit (not meaning to). Again, that wasn't even that big of a deal, but it made it more obvious that something was in there. Yes, I prefer to be oblivious, thank you very much!
Whew! Finally that first stick was over. I'm sure it will be that much easier tomorrow for our next go around. What remained was a blotchy red spot and a little bit of itching around the site for about 10 minutes or so.
I have gotten better through the years but even to this day, sometimes even the thought of swallowing a pill literally gives me the chills. Isn't that just stupid! It is what it is I guess. Maybe after all of this I'll finally be over it. In the meantime, I have to find a way to deal with it. So, I bring you the Reduced Fat Oreo and Pill Combo. A surefire way to make taking pills enjoyable. It's my plan A for this part of the cycle. So far, it's working beautifully.
No side effects to report yet, though I think time will really be the determining factor here. Please body, be good to me! Do what you need to do to get us a baby and nothing more (I wonder if it can hear me :-P).
On that note, I'm tired (probably the reason for the extra dose of sarcasm and the multitude of smiley faces) so off to bed I go. Thanks to everyone for the nice thoughts and comments today. All are very much appreciated!!