Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Forever grateful


As of last Wednesday we were paid in full with our clinic. As I shared with another blogger friend, I am at peace with that. Thankful even. God has taken us so far in our lives together. He has provided a way for us to be able to afford even the chance to have a baby. For that we will be forever grateful.

On Friday, received an e-mail from Dr. Ahlering regarding the stim of choice. While he didn't get into detail about why he originally chose Bravelle, he did say "I whole heartedly believe that you can use (Follistim) the donated meds. No doubt." Since this is the stim we felt made the most sense for us anyway (compared to Bravelle), I feel good about this reassurance. Perhaps if this cycle doesn't work and he feels that the stim was the culprit, we might get into details then. For now, I feel good about this cycle. Just hearing him give his approval put us at ease. It is so nice to feel as though you are in wonderful hands. Not everyone get to that place, nor does that place reside 20 minutes from their home. We are grateful!

As hinted to above (because I don't think I've posted on this yet), we were graciously gifted meds - our stims mostly and also some PIO. Again, we are forever grateful for this woman; someone who has since made peace with not being able to have children and is moving on. Still not sure how one goes about doing that.

While we're counting all the ways we feel forever grateful, I cannot forget my parents. They who, even during uneasy times with my dad being unemployed, somehow were still able to lend a helping hand. I tell you - I hope and pray that one day we will be able to help our children out in all the ways they have helped us. As my Mom put it: this is our grandchild too. For all the ways that they have helped us through this - financially, spiritually, emotionally - we will be forever grateful.

And yet another blessing. The total for what meds remained that I needed to purchase came out to $230. We had budgeted for around $4,000 or so. Yes, I am so very grateful!

Tonight, as I reflect on where we've been.... All of the long months we've waited for this very day, I realize I have made it. I have been through so much and know that I can and will handle what tomorrow holds. Yes, I am anxious. Yes, even a little bit queasy at the thought of that needle, albeit small. Even still, I know God will bring me through it. And for that I am already grateful beyond words.

Tomorrow is OUR day!!! Finally!

To everyone who has helped us get to this point, and I do mean everyone... all of the above and of course my close friends, fellow IF bloggers and my wonderful local support group who all let me vent and share my stress... thank you will never quite do it. Hopefully soon we'll have a sweet baby to share as your reward ;-)



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4 comments:

Fran July 15, 2009 at 5:13 AM  

I am so proud of you. You are in a great place right now, and it'll be a great starrting point for your cycle. I do have a great feeling about this for you and I really mean it! Love, Fran

Jess July 15, 2009 at 9:38 AM  

Great post! Keep up the positive energy...it will be great for making a baby! I feel this is your cycle too and in a few weeks, a BFP!!

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Maureen July 15, 2009 at 9:48 AM  

Hooray Cathy!! I am so excited for you two. And the way everything has fallen into place it definitely a wonderful blessing!! I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!

Clare July 15, 2009 at 5:46 PM  

Really hoping this is it for you! I wish you the best of luck with ER tomorrow and with the next stages beyond - you made it this far! Hugs.

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