I feel nauseous. My nails, completely gone. Yeah, I think that pretty much sums it up.
The nausea is partially due to the stupid BCPs. Silly things are STILL making me sick to my stomach. The last week has been constant force feeding myself, as a good starchy bread is the only thing that makes feel better. I have a feeling I'm going to gain at least 10 lbs by the time this whole IVF thing is done. Probably more if we get pregnant. I have mixed feelings about this, but doesn't everyone?!
As for the nail comment, that would be nerves. I'm ashamed to say that yes, I bite and pick at my nails. It's not pretty and I'm not proud of it, but it's a stress reliever that I can't quite find a replacement for. About a month ago I decided I was going to kick the nasty habit so I ran out and bought a bottle of nail vitamins. I was good for about 2 weeks or so and constantly lathered my ugly nails in this $6 a bottle stuff and was, all things considered, quickly rewarded with a couple hard, healthy nails on each hand. Then, something must have happened. I think it was an afternoon when I started researching some dern IF stuff and got all worked up; before I knew it I had peeled away all my hard work. I was, am still, so very ashamed. Argh. Guess now is not the time to start trying to fix that. There are BIGGER things on the horizon. I do, however, need to calm myself down in moments like that because I'm sure my nerves looked on the inside the way my stupid nails do on the outside.
So, what am I so nervous about?
Yesterday marked just three weeks until we start our protocol - that's right, actual injections. On Tuesday I spoke with my IVF coordinator, Peggy. Our calendar review is set for tomorrow at 8:30 am. She was nice enough to send me a preliminary calendar, which I'm using to look up any meds I'm unfamiliar with. Tonight, Jay and I will sit down and make our list of questions and then pray we have the ability to remember everything that is explained to us tomorrow. In this appt we should get a high level look at how the cycle works, as well as little details about when we'll take what meds and such. Should be fun?!
Peparing to destress my life
I really do feel like my stress levels will be a huge part of how our cycle turns out. It's one detail that I want to pay attention to now, and not regret that I had later. Yesterday, I finally purchased the yoga dvd I posted about awhile back. With shipping it was about $22 or so and hopefully worth every penny. My plan, as of now, is to set up a TV in the soon-to-be baby's room (like the positive vibes there ;) so that I can leave the yoga gear (mat, relaxing candles, relaxing eye patches and other papering goodies) out all the time. The goal is to do yoga every morning and evening, and maybe even during lunch if I'm having a stressful day, every day.
This is just one aspect of destressing I hope to start soon. Another would be starting accupuncture in the next week or so. Last night at my local infertility group meeting, we had a wonderful accupuncturist come and speak. She was ultra informative, easy to talk to and I think treatment will be something that can I can only benefit from during this time. Still on the hunt for some good ways to destress during the day at my desk job...
My journey to overcoming PCOS and infertility when trying to get pregnant with our first baby. Sharing my experience with fertility drugs like metformin&= & clomid, OBGYN doctors, reproductive endocrinologists, polycystic ovarian syndrome, having only one ovary and one fallopian tube when TTC a baby in the St. Louis, Missouri area.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
About this blog...
I'm 27, have been married 8 years and am
trying to overcome infertility issues to
conceive our first baby - God willing!
I hope you find this blog to be useful in
your own journey in trying to get pregnant. Please leave a comment if you read a post you enjoy!
- The What & How: Recapping our IVF Calendar Review
- Our IVF calendar review is tomorrow!
- It might be boring, but still, it's progress!
- Up! left me feeling down :-(
- Patience... I know it's around here somewhere.
- Wake up and smell the coffee... Decaf, please ;)
- Welcome Lost and Founders :-)
- Basking in the glow of the possibility
- Eight Things: Random stuff you might not know
- You see... there's this list and WE'RE on it!
- ▼ June (10)